it's not a girl crush!

Today I wanna blog about a girl that I talk about a lot...

but it's not because I have a girl crush on her!

I have a girl crush on Katy Perry...mayyyyybe Emma Stone,

but anyway, her name is Bri.

I've mentioned her in many posts

(here, here, and here)

She did a guest post,

I wrote about her in my "Delighted :)" page,

and she's the one with the big black and white button on the sidebar.

okay...it sounds a lil' girl crushy, but it's not!!

So, why Kolie?

Why do you talk about this girl so flippin much?

Well, it's because she's basically the nicest person ever.

And I will tell you why.

This is a really hard time in my life.

I have no money, I feel down on my appearance, family nonsense, bleh blah bleh, but she continually does nice things for me AND Tay day after day!

Our awkward sister pic. haha :)

She drove us the half hour to Tay and Ryan's (her husby) work two days in a row!

She took me shopping and helped me find a cute outfit..ALL about me!

She took pictures of Tay and I for engagements!

She lets me borrow her clothes!

Yesterday, she hosted the CUTEST bridal shower for me!

There were TONS of cute decorations and games!

She got me an adorable gift!

She's just..amazing!

And I don't know how to repay her.

 Before I met her, there were a TON of misconceptions about her...

I was intimidated by her amazingly cute sense of style, and I thought she hated me :)

She didn't.

She's so so nice, and people made me think she wasn't...

It was incredibly lame :(

SO,

Dear Bri,

I am EXCITED as all get out to be your sister.

You deserve the best!

I'm so glad to have met you :)

Love,

Your future little sis.

More pictures she took of me and Tay :)

Simple Pleasures

You know the times in life where it gets really really hard to think of the good?

And you sit around wondering 

"When do I get a break??"

or 

That kind of time.

And everyone goes through that at least once.

Haha, some of us get to go through it a lot more than once.

But that's okay.

It helps to see the simple pleasures.

Taylor and I bought a plant.

It's a really big, really pretty plant.

It's a mixture of our favorite colors!

White and Purple.

It's gorgeous.

But a while ago, it started to die.

There were only 2 blossoms left when I asked Taylor,

"Is it okay if we pray for our plant?"

Without hesitating, Taylor said a prayer.

It went something like this:

Please help our plant to grow.

Please help it to receive the nourishment it need to be healthy.

We are so so sorry for not taking care of it like we should.

Help us to know how to make it live again.

Help us to know what to do to help it grow again.

Please.

We ask for this small blessing, please.

The next day, our plant was still dead.

And the next day.

And the next day.

I was getting quite discouraged.

We were watering it every day, why won't our prayer be answered?

 I decided to move it to a sunnier spot..maybe it needs more sun.

And we watered it even more...maybe it needs more water.

And now, well, there's a lot of blossoms.

 And I learned something very valuable,

You can't just standby and wait for things to work out.

You gotta work for it.

You gotta try new things,

try different things,

figure things out.

 God helps those who help themselves.

Blogger Block

I don't actually have blogger block.

I'm just going to talk about blogger block.

I know you appreciate the alliteration!

I lost my first follower....

I was kind of sad.

I mean, I only had 42

(Luckily a special nice person started following me the next day, so I didn't feel too sad for long)

But it got me to thinking.

Why? Why, person, did you stop following me?

Am I too mean?

Lately, I've noticed that my posts have been a little mean.

Am I boring?

I could see that. I don't have a cute weekly thing, or sponsor thing, or anything.

Am I ugly?

I can do less pictures of myself!

(that one was mostly a fishing question...fishing for compliments ;) )

I need to reach out to other bloggers!

Sponsor posts!

Give-a-ways!

Things!

I digress.

Alls I'm sayin is that maybe I don't have blogger block in that I don't know what to post about.

I think I may have blogger block in that I don't know what to blog about.

You get me?

A bit of a problem, don't you think?

I would hate to be the bleh blog.

sigh.

Oh well! 

I will be a blogger to blog.

Side note!
My Mommy got a new do'!

i'm in love with a thief

Bri, Ryan, Tay, and I all hit up

STRAWBERRY DAYS!

Utah has a lot of "days"
Onion days
Pleasant Family Days
Lavender Days
Pioneer Days
etc.
But I love love LOVE Strawberry Days!
Mostly because of strawberries and cream :)
The most delicious thing...out of a lot of delicious things!
And I don't even like strawberries!!

Anyway, there's lots of events and such, but we just went to the Carnival.
Tay has NEVER been to a carnival!
A deprived child, I know haha :)
But more than anything, he wanted to win me something!
Wellllll! He did!

I know, the lighting is weird as all get out.

 He won the dog by getting a slam-dunk! 
Super cool!
But he won that disgusting frog by dominating at the balloon darts. 
This is where we have a story of a true carnie.
The guy said that the more balloons Tay popped, the bigger the prize will be.
He popped all of them!
And the guy pulled out this ugly frog from a bin full of beanie baby things, and one giraffe.
"I thought I got a big prize.."
"You have to pop three more"
"oh, okay, but I'm not paying again. You said I got a big prize."
"You have to pay again."
"Well, can I have a different small prize?"
"from this bin."
"Okay, then I want the giraffe"
"You have to play again for that."
"It's in the bin."
"I don't know how it got there"
So we left with this ugly frog.
Tay despises frogs.
And I love giraffes.
We were pretty bummed we got gypped.

 Wait.
Kolie!
There's a giraffe in this pic.
Well, my lovebird sprinted to the booth while the mean carnie wasn't looking,
swapped the nasty frog for our rightful prize,
and sprinted away.
Thievery.
And I love him.

 

Friday!

Yesterday was friday.

No duh.

Bri went shopping with me and I got some help for dressing my curvy body in a modest way!

Check it!!

(the cute clothes, not the weird face)

Yeah!

Cute right??

And the shoes...

Super cute. 

I KNOW!

It was fun shopping with Bri.

She's like a whole different breed of person.

I'm the shopping mutt, and she's the highly trained, pure-bred, showdog.

We got like 40 different pieces of clothing!

Try on, approve/disapprove, take off, sort, sort, sort. done.

That's how shopping is SUPPOSED to be done.

I really like my new clothes and hope to get $$ so I can get more!

(this is where the I REALLY NEED A JOB thing comes in.)

Anyway, so after that funness, my lovely Tay decided to splurge and take me to the movie, Brave.

We got there an hour early and laid on the floor til they would seat us :)

  It was a great movie, and get this!

So, we don't have a ton of money right now and we were pretty full so we opted to not get popcorn.

But here's something you should know about me.

I freaking LOVE popcorn!

It is BY FAR my favorite food!

Especially kettle corn!!!

So, we finally got seated, and although I was okay with our decision to save money, I secretly wanted popcorn SOOOOOOOOOO bad.

While we were waiting for the movie to begin, Taylor started complaining of a stomach ache.

:( Poor baby.

So, he went off to the bathroom to be sick and whatnot :/

I continued to watch the dumb pre-preview garbage, when some guy with popcorn and soda tried to take Tay's seat!

H no, he's not!

I turned to give the guy a piece of my mind! Ya know, tell him get the heck away from my love's seat!

(aka sorry, this seat is saved :( )

But it wasn't some random guy!

It was MY guy!

With popcorn!!!

I love him.

I love popcorn.

I love him.

He said he knew I couldn't live without it.

You bet I can't!

:D

    What a wonderful friday :)

I'm Curvy.

First, and foremost, please check out this post from my very-soon-to-be-sis-in-law.

Breezy Days

Yeah, she's awesome.

And now I wanna write a similar post, but I don't want to steal her idea.

SO, I'll steal it tomorrow when it's less obvious!

(Bri's probably calling me a nerd right now)

Anyway, so today I'll post about something different.

Something I discovered while Bri was very kindly taking engagements for us :)

What is it you may ask?

I'm curvy.

This is my body's evolution:

And I don't know how to be curvy!

I also don't know how to dress modestly AND cute,

so basically,

my mind is blown.

I know that I'll get it eventually.

And Bri is MORE than willing to help me,

which is a Godsend, because just Look at her!

Until I have money to spend on clothes though,

I'll just have to deal.

But it's tough.

The last time I was this size...well I didn't have curves with it.

And so now, it's a little disheartening.

Because like zillions and zillions of other girls...

I feel a lil' chunky.

It's just this crazy difference.

I was once a size 2, and now I'm verging on an 8.

What's wrong with 8?

NOTHING!

Check these facts out.

- Twenty years ago the average fashion model weighed 8% less than the average woman. Today, she weighs 23% less.

- Ten years ago plus-size models averaged between size 12 and 18. Today the need for size diversity within the plus-size modeling industry continues to be questioned. The majority of plus-size models on agency boards are between a size 6 and 14, while the customers continue to express their dissatisfaction.

- Most runway models meet the Body Mass Index physical criteria for Anorexia.

- 50% of women wear a size 14 or larger, but most standard clothing outlets cater to sizes 14 or smaller.

Anyway, so hopefully I won't get too down.

Because I shouldn't.

And I'm sure Taylor doesn't like it.

He says he doesn't like "skinny girls"

So there you go.

How do you feel about all this?

What's your opinions?

Love ya!

PS   

Look at us taking on the world!!!

PPS You love the pictures, don't you?

Daddy

Dear Dad,

Happy Father's Day.

I love you so so much.

I'm so proud of you for everything that you have done.

I'm so grateful that I have you in my life.

You're amazing.

Thank you for playing with me,

for helping me when I'm struggling,

for hugs and kisses,

for supporting me,

for making silly jokes,

for taking me camping and letting me ride on the back of your atv,

for carrying me inside when I was little and sleeping,

for watching all sorts of movies with me,

for always loving me.

With so much love, your daughter,

Nikole