Sleepless Night

I pulled an all-nighter last night,
but not the fun kind.
It was the kind where you can't sleep, 
no matter what,
and the more you try, the more frustrating everything in the world is.
And you think
and think
and think
about everything!
And before you know it, it's 6 am and you have to get ready for work.
What could have possibly made me think for eight hours straight...

I want my baby boy
I wish I looked better for my wedding
How can I lose weight by July..hmm
I miss him
Why can't I sleep?
I think I have a cavity...:(
Go to sleep!
I don't like our engagement photos..
I wish they matched our theme
I wish they matched our personality
I wish there were more that looked good
I wish I looked better in them
I need to whiten my teeth.
I need to look better.
I need my baby boy.
Just go to sleep please.
How do I do everything?
Do I really want to get married at Mount Timpanogos?
I wish my baby boy would wake up.
I wish I didn't cut my hair.
How should I do my hair for our wedding?
I need him.
I need him right now.
I need him to scratch my back until I fall asleep.
I need him to tell me a story.
I need it.
I need him.
Go to sleep.
Go to sleep.
Got to sleep.
I need him...

Sometimes, I can be kind of a baby.
But I'll get it. :)
Everyone has hard times sometimes,
Have you ever had a sleepless night? :/

PS! Happy Monday!


  1. Oh sweetheart... you are the most amazing thing ever. I love you so much. Hard times come cuz better times are coming. We will be getting married to each other and will always have each other by our sides. I love you, my angel darling. I am so in love with you.

    1. I hope this comment got posted... Haha

    2. nikole this makes me so sad! you are absolutely stunning, tell your brain to stop telling you such rude things because it is wrong!

  2. Just found your blog through the do something good link up and am finally getting around to commenting! I totally feel your pain- I got married a year ago and the engagement/ wedding plan was definitely by far the worst period of my life. I HATED it. You have so many expectations for your wedding day and then nothing turns out in the planning like you want it and my fiance was gone/busy for much of the period so alot of it I was doing on my own... ugh... SO annoying. So I feel you. Just know that it gets better. The engagement is a testing time and once you get to the marriage it all gets so much better!

    new follower :)